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Wednesday, August 3, 2011 @ 6:13:00 AM
i know you wont be reading , so i'm just gonna type here .
Things have been really different lately . We may have become closer again , back to quarelling , but to me everything still feels the same , still as awkward . I dont know why is it so difficult to talk to you again face to face . You seem to be avoiding me ):
And somehow i get reallyreallyreally jealous when you talk to her , be it just a smile , a poke , or a word . Especially when she tells me how you all sms everytime talking about things , how the two of you 'quarrel' through sms etc . as though she knows you very well ... Its just her ... I dont like seeing the two of you being so close and you're like talking to her instead of me when you saw the both of us . I just felt that ... we should be closer )': I know its really selfish to think that way , but i just cant help it . And i dont know what to do now .
I miss receiving your little random notes in class , our long chat on facebook everytime . I miss quarelling with you . And creating all sorts of nicknames for you ... But maybe you've alr found some other person who is better at quarelling with you , much more interesting than me and you dont need me anymore . Maybe everything you wrote in the letter weren't true at all . Maybe i'm just being too jealous . Maybe i was too naive . Maybe , it's just me ...