i really miss those days when i could talk to you whenever i want .

LAST DAY OF EXAMSSSSSSS (((:
no wait . there's still physics spa and prelims gosh . )):
zzzzzzzz sian ttm . but nvm , shall just watch sunny girl now ! :D

not gonna have anymore false hopes this time . i'm forgetting everything , and moving on . that's it .

when people were discussing about their answers after the paper today , i didnt even had any idea what they were saying cause i didnt know how to attempt the questions and get any answers .
getting a pass seems impossible now .

儿童节快到了 ...
你还记得你曾经答应过我什么吗 ?
算了 , 这种琐碎的事 , 应该只有我会记得吧 ...

okay , it feels really weird typing in chinese :/
anw , today's amaths was like DDD: !!
higher order thinking for polynomials came out again ,
and guessed what .
I COULDNT RMB HOW TO DO ! ):
lost like 20+ marks alr .
made a lot of careless mistakes and all the stupid things which i shouldnt have done !!
towards the end of the paper i was really trying to hold back my tears :/
cnt cry in front of so many people uhh .
if not very throw face .
shall study hard for tmr's history paper .
i really dont know about amaths . maybe will read up more on trigo and binomials ?
and definitely polynomials !! -.-
feel so dumb when others were saying how easy the paper was ):
but its alr overrrrrrr , nth could be done now .
so i shall just concentrate on the rest of the papers .
this week still got history , amaths paper 2 , GEOG and chem
and i havent started on any yetttttt
good luck , regine ! -.-

why is it so difficult letting go?

hmm . its been ten months O: time passed really fast . these 10 months had been quite hectic for me :/
I wonder if you still rmb what you said that night .. exactly ten months ago :/ well , maybe it means nothing to you anymore . Anw , its all over alr . She's right . I should just let go .. I'll get over everything . For real . As long as we stop talking . 10 months of torture is enough . 不再会有任何挂念了 (: good luck with your love life LOL
dont hate me omg D:

it was wayyyyyy too obvious .

wheeeeeeeee . sunnygirl is so addictive i cant get enough of it >.< omgomg . and eoys is like next next week :/
really need to get started with revision . NO MORE PROCRASTINATING !!

even though i'm no longer the one you love anymore , but i still hope that you know i'll always be there for you ..
gosh i sound so 伟大 :x

wheeeeeee . havent been blogging for asdfghjkl months :/ its so difficult to use the new blogger interface !
anw , has been rather busy lately . there's gonna be 5 tests next week , not including el oral ))))): sad x infinity . i reallyreally dont want oral omg . but luckily my examiner is ms hafizah (?) considered quite luckily compared to others - evil smiles - >.< teehee .
hmmm still contemplating if i should go for champions day . they say its once in secondary life HAHA but then i would miss piano and my $50 would just fly away ): urghhhhhhh . sad life ttm
shall start on my letter for eliz after eoys :/ too lazy to write now oops :p
heeee okay there's nothing much about my boring and lifeless life HAHA so yeahh kthxbyeeeee :)

getwellsoon :/

when i saw that tweet , my heart instantly broke .
30 August 2011 ; 1:00 am

maybe i should go back to blogging , instead of ranting on twitter :/
i really dont know what to do .
sometimes , i feel that i'm the despo one . ):

i know you wont be reading , so i'm just gonna type here .

Things have been really different lately . We may have become closer again , back to quarelling , but to me everything still feels the same , still as awkward . I dont know why is it so difficult to talk to you again face to face . You seem to be avoiding me ):

And somehow i get reallyreallyreally jealous when you talk to her , be it just a smile , a poke , or a word . Especially when she tells me how you all sms everytime talking about things , how the two of you 'quarrel' through sms etc . as though she knows you very well ... Its just  her ... I dont like seeing the two of you being so close and you're like talking to her instead of me when you saw the both of us . I just felt that ... we should be closer )': I know its really selfish to think that way , but i just cant help it . And i dont know what to do now .

I miss receiving your little random notes in class , our long chat on facebook everytime . I miss quarelling with you . And creating all sorts of nicknames for you ... But maybe you've alr found some other person who is better at quarelling with you , much more interesting than me and you dont need me anymore . Maybe everything you wrote in the letter weren't true at all . Maybe i'm just being too jealous . Maybe i was too naive . Maybe , it's just me ...

heeeeeyyy . finally , we had a fenzu after like so long :D
was put in zheng II , and felt kinda disappointed at first .. cos maybe tsb dont think i'm as good as last time alr . and i really miss zheng 1 alotttt D; but there are really alot of nice people in zheng II too ! (: people like sipin , weipinggggg , wanqi , weiting , jasper , yusong , tengyifeiiiii , jingwen , qiuhui and not forgetting alvinaaaaaaa . hahah okay , thats apparently everyone in the zheng -.- but yeah ! they're really nice ! (:
but this time , the sec 4s are not here with us anymore D: and its like , are the task were given to the sec 3s . all the hopes were pinned onto us , and we had to be responsible for many things :/ i still wanna be a little kid in guzheng where there're the big sisters and brothers to take care of everything ! :X but still , i'll try to enjoy all the time we have now ! (: hmmmmm .. hopefully we'll have fun with the sec 1s and 2s ((:

I'm really trying my best to forget you . I'm alr trying to act as normal as possible everytime i see you around . But can i act as though i didnt see any of those and continue faking a smile ? i really hate this life of mine .

oooooh . its elizabeth the queen's birthday tmr !!! :D haven't got her a present yet D: should i stay awake till 12 midnight to wish her ? :/ but there's listening compre tmr :O hmmmm .. anw i'm meeting her for lunch next tuesday ! jyeahhhhhhh >.<

heh . its been a long time since i've last posted so yeahh .
o-level oral is over !! but was done horribly so i dont really expect anything (:
like SINGAPORE POPULATION GROWTH ?!!? i mean hello ?? why would we be bothered about it ? -.-
anyway . back to saturday , superrrrr busyyy only
in the morning we had flag day . me , geraldine , seetha , jasmine , linzhen and vanessa to j8 ! (: and the moment we reached , i saw jiajun and his friends who were alr there doing their flag day -.- hahah , but they left ! :D ( i swear i didnt chase him away >.< ) so we split up and went to collect donations . got rejected like siao D; but quite fun luh . saw teacher tricia and she was so touched that i still rmb her xD met jialing and sarah lim too ! andandand , there were 4 xms graduates and they saw me there in my uniform , so they came and donated alot cos they wanted to make students from other schools jealous as they were doing their flag day too . likka cute only ! so afternoon , we went back to school and i chionged to tuition ! damn tired only . luckily got released on time , then i chionged home again ! >.< saw leow ching at amk interchange . its like i always see him everytime i'm there hahas . so , i went home to change and everything and my parents fetched me to mediacorp !!!!!!! reached damn early . got to see aaron like after 6 months ! damn overjoyed :D no regrets at all !!! hehehs . so yaaa . end (:

why is it like the more i try to avoid you , the more often i see you popping out of nowhere ? ):

Ytd night went out for dinner . I guess mum realised i was rather sad , so she bought me the backpack i always wanted just that it isnt transparent D: and a dress from fox . yeahhhh . nth much .
today's the third again . and i suppose it's just like any other normal day (:
I'm sorry for creating so much trouble for you . i guess you were kinda annoyed with me ? haha . even i'm angry with myself . People can let go so easily and keep things to themselves , yet i had to make it so obvious and cause you to feel so bad .. I really dont know what to do ): all i can say is , i'm sorry . you dont have to do anything to make it stop , just stop talking to me and giving me false hopes . thankyou .

i really hope you dont see this :/

Labels: sadgirl96

從開始怎麼相愛　到最後怎樣離開　
難過愉快從來早有安排　放也放不開
或許是我　一直捨不得放開　
事過境遷也都記得　那些全是愛


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